Welcome to Moody Monday where I allow my mood to dictate what I write. Tonight, I will be sharing what happens to empathic women who are in relationship with toxic, narcissistic men..
Have you ever met a man that had “potential” but rough around the edges? A man that you began to fall in love with what he could be so you attempt to fix and save him? A man that has revealed to you glimpses of disrespect but you simply brush it off because you realize that he is still in repair from all of the “wrong” the world has done to him? I have and it feels like a spiraling rollercoaster. At first, it’s exciting that you are helping someone that really needs it but then you experience the repercussions of a narcissist who only cares about how they are affected by a situation but completely disregards your emotional health. How being the empath you are, you simply don’t want to give up on someone that you are trying to love but are yet conflicted with how much emotional games you have to endure. He says sorry for being disrespectful and calling you out your name but continues to do it days later. The awful feeling you experience when he punishes you for having emotions and feelings that don’t align with his agenda. Then the isolation begins. He starts to slowly disconnect you from your family and friends to have more power over you until you feel weak and hopeless. You are the villain if you try to leave and he is the victim trying to convince you that you are always wrong and can never do anything right and no one could ever love you like him. You slowly lose yourself. One day you don’t even recognize yourself and your whole world has deteriorated in front of your eyes. Let me tell you something, when you start to feel you don’t know yourself while being in a toxic relationship, run. A gaslighting gangster is not someone you should try to fix but a person you should disengage from immediately to avoid any baggage, unnecessary hurt and trauma from it. Run girl, and never look back…..
Tune next week for another Moody Monday!